livejournal has been quite dead lately

My hair is growing

It's weird to here that I don't have any more classes to take after next semester. Whats up super big break.

I haven't really been updating all too much. Mainly because well, things happen too fast and im mostly using the internet for my 'job' and checking in on sg. I also have to keep a journal for my creative writing, and i dont feel like repeating myself.

I drove my first long trip to yucca valley for a photshoot. My new photographer is awesome and sweet and we hung out for a long time with James at a bar/restaraunt just hanging out. At the end of the night we ended up taking a wrong turn and what was suppose to be a 3 hour trip ended up being a 6 hour trip lol. Didn't help that both our phones were dead and it was late at night with no lights visible. It was fun though, quite an adventure and im glad there was at least one gas station open and i had money in my account to pay for gas.

I'm also still a vegetarian, its not as hard as I thought. It's been quite a while and my body feels a lot better. I relapsed about a month ago because I was drunk and needed chicken strips, that doesnt count :)

Also almost done with the semester. It's been a long semester.

I really haven't been updating as much as i should. With work consuming my life, finally being able to drive, and a new photoshoot in the making, I have been keeping to myself a lot. But, I did come here to let you know that I made tofu for the first time. I'm terrified of tofu, but it wasn't too bad, I know I need to cook it longer next time lol.

Fried tofu marinated in: pesto, italian dressing, pepper, garlic
Half yellow pepper
half red pepper
chopped asparagus
broccoli
onions
some curry and more garlic
stir them together and tasty treat in your mouth

-I've driven 918 miles so far in my car :)
-I have a photoshoot in 2 weeks, it will probably be my last for SG if this one doesnt get bought and I'll just go to a different company. I need moniez and the group isnt fun anymore, it's just getting to be a popularity contest. I think I say that everytime though hah
-I'm still sick and my ear is infected

My god. This is seriously the 4th week where I've been terribly sick. I went to the hospital a few days ago because I had enough of it, got antibiotics and still sick. I'm finished with my antibiotics and now im just struggling. No, it's not swine flu. This is called Exning in October. fuck my life

I haven't written in a week. I've been sick. NOTHING exciting except that i stretched my ears.

Day two of my no meat extravaganza. I'm doing this to lose weight, i dont care if i kill helpless animals. Just happens to be that they are too fattening for my diet and I can't lose the ten pounds I gained when I got in the valley. I still can't eat a can of tomatoes for lunch like my mother does, that's just wrong.

I'm also almost done with being sick. I thought I could handle it today when I went to target to run errands but I was sneazing the entire time and everyone looked at me like a heroin addict because I didn't have make up on, ha.

Other than that, jasmine tea, texting and hanging out with friends till 4 in the morning and just talking is what I do best.

photos from super hero party

Life is confusing
I'm getting sick
School is going okay
My hairs getting longer
Boys

ughhghghghg I also miss bookstores. Just being able to walk from the coffee shop to a bookstore in Campbell. This is exactly why people are idiots here, we dont have a GOOD bookstore. Do we? 5th Avenue books doesnt count

I miss that feeling of being in love.

The summer is over?

Lately I don't even feel like writing becuase my life has been endless tasks. Not saying that's a bad thing, just means I generally don't have anything to complain about and I'm getting tired of getting angry at people for shit that won't matter in a few months anyway. This summer someone I love (and still love, of course) betrayed me and left me for someone else. I moved home, which was the one thing I told myself I would never do. I found friends that understood me and lost the ones that just don't get it.
For right now, i dont mind being stuck here because now i know what's out there and I'm not afraid anymore. I know I can leave, and I probably will within this year again, but the only rush is my mother telling me I need to transfer. When I lived in San Jose, I knew I had friends in the valley, but now i know I really have people that aren't necessarily friends, but people that get it. That's all I really need to know, that there are those people out there, whether or not they are close to me.
I made over 2 to 3 thousand dollars, got my license, got a car, and drive my ass everywhere now. I have a boyfriend that I don't have to worry about and that helps me out when I need it, but not because I want it. I've lost contact with pretty much everyone in San Jose whether on my part or theirs. The love of my life, Rufus, died unexpectadly and now lives in the ground by the driveway he hears my car from.
I think I've just felt a little bit empty because I've been so busy with being a normal social person to actually play guitar and write music, or paint, or overanalyze and stress about things that don't really matter. Keeping to myself didn't do me all that good it seems like, I can't decide if im losing part of my old self or just gaining a new part. Anyway, here's to the summer.

driving myself to school now :)

I got a car :D Ford Focus black 2009 New. Free sirius radio for 6 months. GOD I kick ass. So does my mom for buying it too.

I'm battling bugs. Huge demons infesting this room. James, JT and Josh left to Holtville. I didn't really feel like going so I stayed "home" and am watching the house. I feel like im intruding but nobody seems to care. I clean every once in a while, I'm not annoying, and im going through a rough time. These bugs are giving me a rough time though, they are telling me to leave. That it's not my place. I feel they are crawling all over my back, but it's just my paranoid state of mind. Animals and people are slowly dying, this happened with Sabrina. My great grandmother died after that. I have a feeling this is going to be a reacurring thing.

My chinchilla, Rufus, passed away tonight.

I GOT MY MOTHER FUCKING LICENSE BITCHHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

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